Kalaupun masih salah biarlah jadi salah gue.

Hei you my secret reader *kali aja ada*

gak tau lagi mau cerita kemana euy...

Semanjak hari itu, gueeee susah untuk tidak peduli dengan perasaan yang ada.

Perasaan yang harusnya tidak ada *sigh*

Peraaaan yang awalnya tidak ada *sigh*

yah...

sudah lah!

Gue pasrah deh!

Gue pasraaah hidup gue mau diapakan Tuhan.

Terserah lah!

Kalaupun gue masih salah, biar deh jadi salah gue sendiri.

Kalaupun gimana gimana, dan gue udah gak bisa lagi menahannya...

Ya.. semoga itu jalan yang terbaik.

*Sigh*

Lu gak usah nerka nerka gue kenapa.
Gue lagi galau. Titik!

Gak usah nerka nerka galau gue kenapa..
Udah pasti soal hati, soal perasaan, soal feeling yang boleh dibilang terluka. Makanya berasa sakit..

Sakitnya dimana? ya disini.. *nunjuk dada kamuuu* xixixi.

Btw artis itu belakangan ini banyak yang cerai ya.. ya mungkin karena suka acting juga kalik sama orang drumahnya..
Jadi susah dibedakan, mana yang jujurnya mana yang boongnya..

:(

Wondering

Hai people..
Hai friends..
or
Anyone who still stick with me in here hahaha

Hellooooo
ohhh men you know what, I can't believe I still alive today
What's year now? 2015? o.mai.gat!!!

I remembered yesterday I just woke up with my toys, heard my mom yelling at me as the wake up time hahaha Go to school as my first day, met new friends around 4 or 5 years old in a place called PLAY GROUND... hahahaha

Ahhh I miss those memory..
If I can do something just to go back to that time, I'LL DO IT FOR SURE
I'll make my mom and dad laughing and will kiss them all day long..
I'll make my first date as my best day ever..
I'll take him that who I adore since my 1st class in my SMU and dancing with him at Prom Night..
I'll kiss everyone as much as I can
I'll hug them very tight
And will never make anyone cried..
Never!

You know,
I suddenly realize many things
About what I've done..

and now I felt so sad..

I'm thanking to you GOD for my life, I just wondering how if I have a chance to make anything better and fix them would my heart will feel better? well maybe it will be :)

You've made me realize my deepest fear

You and me, we made a vow
For better or for worse
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof's in the way it hurts

For months on end I've had my doubts
Denying every tear
I wish this would be over now
But I know that I still need you here

You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one

You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though Lord knows you kept mine

- Je, 28 August 2015 -

Just keep calm, God still yours! :)

Whatever it felts like, i never have a reason to going back to the past, my past, nor a minutes ago, nor yesterday, nor a few weeks ago, nor last year and thanks God, anyway.. I've got today, and ready for my future day for whatever it will looks like. :)

Sincerely, Janurischa Seflin Samban!

Menangis lah

"Kalau merasa punya Tuhan, kau tidak perlu menangis".

Kata kata ini memang, positif sih...
tetapi kadang kadang menangis dibutuhkan sebagai penyembuh luka.

Saya sering nangis?
OH TENTU TIDAK LAH.
coba angkat tangan hai temanku yang pernah liat saya nangis?

Saya kuat?
OH TENTU TIDAK JUGA DONG.
kau boleh tanya Ibu dan kekasihku jika kau bingung maksud saya apa. :)

Tidak sedikit yang akan bilang Janu itu tidak pernah nangis.

tapi

Akan ada 1 orang yang akan bilang Janu itu cengeng. Papaku.

#ahImissYouPapa

Menangislah ketika kau bersedih
Menangislah ketika kau terluka
Menangislah ketika kau dikecewakan

KENAPA?

karna dengan cara seperti itu, kau langsung mengadakan perjanjian dengan Tuhan.

"Setiap air mata yang kau jatuhkan hari ini akan digantikan-Nya dengan beriburibu kebahagian esok hari."

Ingat lah terus janji Tuhan ini saat kau menangis dan berdoa, mungkin itu akan membantumu menyembuhkan luka hati mu :)

Trouble.

Oh, no, I see
A spider web, it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I'd said,

Oh, no, what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
So I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

And I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well, if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Oh, no, I see
A spider web, and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here am I in my little bubble,
Singing out...

I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well, if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh, no, I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

-COLDPLAY-

Ha.ha.ha Dan Ha.ha

Kau harus selalu tertawa. Setidaknya untuk dirimu sendiri.

Atau
Kalau kau tidak bisa tertawa, ucapkan lah kata Ha.Ha.Ha itu.. ucapkan berkali kali sampai kau merasa lucu HAHAHAH

Trust me it works.

Walaupun pada akhirnya yang kau tertawakan adalah hidupmu sendiri.
Tapi setidaknya itu bisa mengingatkanmu, tentang pelajaran hidup masa lalu.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA